Friday, March 26, 2010
i am too stressed. TOO stressed.
lately in school i have been embarassed a lot. like a LOT lot.
kinda suck at maths and physics (the two subjects i actually like =.=),
and my monthly test results suck. failed both subjects.
i also have been skipping school. have been feeling unwell for quite a while.
but not sure what it is so...no need to cause worry right. later go see doctor then they say got ntg wrong pula. lol.
then maths teacher keeps bringing up the fact that i skip school thats why i suck at maths. =.=
i suck at maths cause I DUNNO WATS GOING ON. i can understand bit by bit but when it comes to the whole thing i don really know wat to do most of the time. its usually the easy ones that i cant do. funny thing is, most of the HARD questions i can do! arghh. my brain sucks. but because the easy ones come first, my long questions are doomed. sigh.
if he bothered to ask WHY, he would have gotten this nice answer.
sigh. then PA teacher...wow. he really likes picking on me. i completely forgot that i had a pa presentation on monday (skipped school day), and i had the powerpoint so yeah. heh. mmg guilty of that. i apologized to my team and they were fine (of course, why would they be angry at a chance to postpone the presentation?? lol) but he kept talking abt it. apparently he and the maths teacher discuss me. =.= if he would bother to look at my PA results, he has ntg to say abt me. NOTHING. dumb person. sigh.
whats more, today in school, he read my results out to the whole class.
HE TOOK MY REPORT CARD AND READ MY RESULTS OUT TO THE WHOLE CLASS. what kind of teacher is this. i wasnt failing PA. i'd understand if the maths teacher read my failing grade out la. but who is this DG-52 person that he has the right to read out my results?
unfortunately, cant sue him for this. i checked with the lawyer beside me. sigh...
imagine, thats just abt school.
tomorrow's my first Div II match. XD excited. scared. pressured.
but thats not the worst. my day is so packed, i'm not sure i should go for the worship summit?
sigh. pastor is asking us to choose our priorities.
is it floorball?
or worship team?
ive been in the worship team for so long. im not sure if its my ministry. i love to sing, and i will only sing for God, but does that mean i should be in the worship team? just thoughts. XP don worry so much. lol
then there's floorball. i actually like floorball. heh. yes tania, laugh all u want. =) but do i see myself playing floorball in 5 years? i dunno. i look at those keng national players, and they're mostly older than me. so would i be there as well?? i dunno. sigh.
and i still havent found my ministry. sigh. or maybe im looking too hard that i overlook. heh. could be possible. i AM that dumb.
THEN...there's my self-esteem. sigh. there's always something i wanna change about myself. but then ppl say that God will love us no matter what. so do i change or NOT?? arghh. life is so complicated.
but as i said on the 1st of January 2010, when my life really sucked,
NO DRAMA, NO LIFE. xD
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